I’ve been thinking about translation for a very long time. Most obviously, I am a migrant who primarily speaks a language that is not native to me. I also studied Tibetan language as my undergraduate degree and I am a literary translator working from Lithuanian into English.
As a non-binary trans person, I also think of translation as a mode of living that anyone who is not aligned with the hegemony of the time, are constantly doing. How do we as queer people navigate language when it has been tampered with to exclude and erase us?
I often think about the sense of grief and melancholy that lots of queer people live with. While a linguistic angle is certainly not THE explanation for queer grief, I believe that so much of our sense of loss is rooted in the fact that we had and still have to learn an inadequate cisheteronormative language; and that, if we are lucky enough, we can begin to see its inadequacy and begin to unlearn it.
The moment we realise we do not speak our language and our own bodies are a foreign land is the moment that marks the beginning of rewriting, and all the joy and playfulness, and invention, and discovery rooted in the process.
I made this piece as a mostly non-linear network of fragments. I included speeches, readings, traditional Lithuanian music, as well my own song and essay fragments. It felt like this was the most authentic way to try to represent what thinking about translation evokes for me.
Samples, sounds and texts used:
Ursula Le Guin reads her own translation of Tao Te Ching Traditional Lithuanian orphan song Judith Butler on Grief Ursula Le Guin reads her own translation of Tao Te Ching Sasha Wilde song fragment Karen van Dyck on Migration, Translingualism and Translation Introduction to Ludwig Wittgenstein Teju Cole On Carrying and Being Carried Sasha Wilde essay fragment Lithuanian pagan song for the god of thunder Perkūnas by Kūlgrinda Sasha Wilde singing a fragment of an essay as liturgy
Time and space warps in the year 2020. This is my sonic uncanny valley for the occasion.