A collaborative short film between director Stella Malfilatre and Maltese archive space Rosa Kwir founder Romeo Roxman Gatt made on a £5 plastic super8 camera. It lives on Body Stories.

Poem & music by @roxmangatt
Additional music by the magical @sashakinwilde
Graphics @eliomercer
Film+processing @shutterbug_cph

sailing the rising waters
i often dreamt of freedom
a solo adventure like in books
my magic was once strong but undisciplined
now i have no time to waste
you are waiting for me
in my language to say the words
sailing the rising seas

The evening is a spell for love and kindness in the trans and queer community and an offering of this energy to all of us. We will communally hold this intention to make space in the world for our community to thrive and for all of us to feel the support needed to be able to express ourselves. 

We ask people to bring a flower and a piece of string. Each person arriving will add their piece of string which will be tied into a circle at the end of the performance. You’re also welcome to bring any other items you would like to offer to the collective shrine we will build together. 

Elie and Sasha seek to create a space, where touch, sound and connection are all part of a continuous loop of real-time embodied responses, and where the vulnerability allows for a liminal state of consciousness to emerge. It is in this state that new ways of relating and experiencing subjectivity become possible on an embodied pre-linguistic level. They use costume, special effects, sound and ritual to explore visual representation of fantastic internal realities that bondage can facilitate. 

Vocal contribution to the soundtrack

Human Measure straddles dance and the history of photography. The work is purposefully designed to be difficult to see and is staged in low levels of red light found in photographic darkrooms. The viewer’s physiology is hijacked as live after images are seared into the audience’s retina by a massive flashing light box, culminating in the active development of one of the world’s largest cyanotypes, on stage in real time.

Rooted in kinesiology, martial arts, sports science and personal safety protocols they reinterpret Yves Klein’s Anthropometries paintings. As opposed to the models in Klein’s work who acted as passive “human paintbrushes”, the performers in Human Measure wield the double-edged sword of representation in a collective process of empowered labor.

Sasha Wilde · Making an effigy of Sasha Wilde for burning

This new work in development deals with being accused of witchcraft and satanism as a teen, under quite tragic circumstances. The town begins its trial. Police, journalists and teacher committees, as well as regular town folk seek to get a confession out of me; a confession of my perversion, possession of magical powers, and my pact with the devil.
. . .
I am taken to the headmaster’s office, where I am sat down at one end of a long table with the headmaster and his deputies around me. He slams some random people’s poems printed off the website “gothic.lt” in front of me and asks me to explain them. I tell him they’re not mine and so I don’t know what they’re about. One deputy impatiently inserts herself: “What do you think about cemeteries?”
“I find them a peaceful place to visit and to contemplate in.”
“But why cemeteries? Isn’t it a morbid place to spend time in?”
I say “Death is part of life and I like to contemplate that”.
Unexpectedly, another deputy tells everyone she agrees with me, which leads to an argument between the two deputies over whether death is part of life or not. I sit patiently, observing, until they notice me again and tell me I’m free to go.

Using sound, movement and wearable technologies, Nicole, Byuka and Sasha use their interest in erotics, sensual experience, spirituality and embodiment to seek other-than possibilities to create conditions for collaborative feeling and channeling in the present moment. When designing a technological platform for performance, the physical, intuitive, sensual experience is considered to ask the question: Will it feel good?

Amidst an explosion of interest in the ‘trans experience,’ we also run the risk of calcifying our cultural narratives. Finn is a short, fresh breath of air, at once reaching deep into the roots of a singular trans man’s experience while simultaneously opening up the conversation around what we all share, rather than what separates us. Directed by Lydia Garnett, the film is a simple, elegant testament to the importance of honest and unfiltered storytelling.
Listen to the full track below:

Sasha Wilde · A Love Letter To My Friends

KERAI means ‘charm, spell and glamour’ in Lithuanian. “Show Me a Future Where I Can Live” is a testament to both resilience and vulnerability – from Sasha Wilde’s post-Soviet childhood, growing up queer in a hostile environment, through to surviving an actual witch-hunt. Sasha Wilde and Julian Wharton weave together a tapestry made up of sounds influenced by moody Russian New Wave, Scandinavian electronica, and Lithuanian folk – all punctuated with deep and punchy bass and kick. Ursula K Le Guin and H. G. Welles’ sampled voices evoke longing for a new way of being. “Show Me a Future Where I Can Live” is brimming with references to alien worlds, (transphobic) monsters, otherworldly creatures and ghosts, and cruising. Prepare yourself for some serious shapeshifting.
Album cover credits: photo and digital edit by Iggy Robinson. Metal headpiece by Izzi Valentine.

Evolution is a queer meditation on monstrosity and the erotic. The video invites the viewer to abandon attempts at categorising what they see and to give up the notions of reading and passing. Evolution creates a space where there is freedom to go through the feelings of attraction, revulsion and fascination without shutting down the possibilities of an intimate encounter.

In Lydia Garnett’s black and white video for Heaven And Songs, KERAI’s Sasha Wilde moves in an undefined space, coming in and out of focus, momentarily emerging from darkness into light.
“The song evokes the feeling of a perfect moment slipping away,” says Garnett. “It reimagines the haunting of one’s lover as a sweet continuation of an infinite bond. Heaven and Songs captures the immense vitality that can be found in liminal spaces, where life is lived with an intense sense of connection and freedom.”
And this visual captures that romantic intensity of both the artist and song in an alluring yet concise fashion.

The video for Lonely Cowgirl by Trouble Wanted follows a queer, lesbian romance that unfolds in a fantasy roadside bar, full of high-drag, lusty visual exchanges and John Waters-style weirdness. 
Produced by a team of creative talent from London’s queer scene, the careful attention paid to lighting, art direction and styling make this otherwordly saloon feel like it could be set in any time period between 1970 and 2030. 

mother tongues · WAVES & RITUALS: 'Every time I am erased, I write myself back' by Sasha Wilde

I’ve been thinking about translation for a very long time. Most obviously, I am a migrant who primarily speaks a language that is not native to me. I also studied Tibetan language as my undergraduate degree and I am a literary translator working from Lithuanian into English. 
As a non-binary trans person, I also think of translation as a mode of living that anyone who is not aligned with the hegemony of the time, are constantly doing. How do we as queer people navigate language when it has been tampered with to exclude and erase us? 
I often think about the sense of grief and melancholy that lots of queer people live with. While a linguistic angle is certainly not THE explanation for queer grief, I believe that  so much of our sense of loss is rooted in the fact that we had and still have to learn an inadequate  cisheteronormative language; and that, if we are lucky enough, we can begin to see its inadequacy and begin to unlearn it. 
The moment we realise we do not speak our language and our own bodies are a foreign land is the moment that marks the beginning of rewriting, and all the joy and playfulness, and invention, and discovery rooted in the process. 
I made this piece as a mostly non-linear network of fragments. I included speeches, readings, traditional Lithuanian music, as well my own song and essay fragments. It felt like this was the most authentic way to try to represent what thinking about translation evokes for me. 

Samples, sounds and texts used: 

Ursula Le Guin reads her own translation of Tao Te Ching
Traditional Lithuanian orphan song
Judith Butler on Grief
Ursula Le Guin reads her own translation of Tao Te Ching
Sasha Wilde song fragment
Karen van Dyck on Migration, Translingualism and Translation
Introduction to Ludwig Wittgenstein
Teju Cole On Carrying and Being Carried
Sasha Wilde essay fragment
Lithuanian pagan song for the god of thunder Perkūnas by Kūlgrinda
Sasha Wilde singing a fragment of an essay 

Sasha Wilde · Walk Through The Valley Of 2020

Speaking in Tongues: that was before but now it’s after

Production, recording, vocals

Sasha Wilde · speaking in tongues: that was before but now it’s after